Idiotic Things People Say

Here is Idiotic Thing #1: In the middle of an argument with someone you say: "You don't know me." You say this in some sort of defense of your argument. As though it is someone else's responsibility to know what you won't tell them. If you're not going to tell people about you, don't expect them to know you. And if they don't "know you," don't use it as an argument because it's you're own fault and makes you look like even more of an idiot.
I really don't understand why people seem to feel proud at shutting people out. As though it is some sort of accomplishment to be rewarded to make it as difficult as possible for people to get close to you.
The reality of the matter is that people who do things like that realize how ill-equipped and prepared they are for dealing with other people. They're so afraid of looking like an idiot that they do the most idiotic thing, and shut everyone out. Then they get all kinds of pissed when noone understands them. Imagine that.
So get over yourself, and open yourself up to the rest of the world. You don't have to sacrifice yourself to the world, but not being a brick wall would be a good start.

A new year a new leaf

I have been told on a number of occasions now that I am falling behind in my writing. Who knew that after you graduated you'd still have someone standing over you telling you to get something done?
Anyway, things have changed and some things haven't. I bought a kayak. Anyone who reads this already knows this, but they're also used to me just randomly reminding everyone that I have a kayak. As of late I have been trying to do things that I thoroughly enjoy. Not simply enjoy or have a little fun at, but things that I sincerely, completely enjoy. Everyone should do it. And not just try it, but do it regularly. It's not easy. And spare me your patronizing, delusional bullshit if you're thinking right now, "Yes it is, I do it all the time." No you don't. And if you do, you need to look around for all the people you're not truly caring about. They won't be hard to find, they'll be everyone but you.
In any case, it's been enjoyable. I went hiking yesterday with some friends from work. We hiked over 7 miles up to the Appalachian Trail. I tested out my pack for the first time. It was awesome. My Rino GPS worked wonderfully too.
The more I do this sort of thing, the more I come to realize that this is exactly what I am supposed to be doing all the time. Now I just need to figure out how I can do just that. I have a feeling it is going to mean doing something I won't really enjoy, but if it gets me to where I want to go, then so be it.
You know I somewhat understand the idea of "turning over a new leaf," but then again, not really. Anyway, things have been a little rough when it comes to relationships lately. The fact of the matter is that I haven't been in a lasting relationship for quite a while and it's taking a toll on me. You know that feeling you get when you feel like you belong? When you feel like the person you're with is everything you need? It's a wonderful feeling to realize that someone else can make you feel that way. When you feel like you could survive just about anything, handle any situation, weather any storm just so long as they're with you and always will be. I miss that.